tim is a terrible student 1:11 am
So, remember how I have a job?
I also have exams. Specifically one on Wednesday for a class during which I was usually asleep, or not there.
Which means I only have two full days (Sunday, and half of the Monday and Tuesday respectively) to study for it.
Uh.
tim is a terrible student 2:08 am
I thought I was pretty sure what I wanted to do in the future. “I want to help people,” I said, “I want to make the world get along better,” and I thought I could do that with politics or working with an NGO or something.
But there’s two things standing in my way.
The first is my crippling laziness, which consequently results in me never getting anything done, ever. The irony is that laziness itself it what keeps me from doing anything about my laziness.
The second is the pathetic amount I know about current affairs. For all my ambition and aims, I actually know seemingly know next to nothing about politics, or relations, or what the hell is actually going on in this world. Even when I sit around and read the newspaper or actually study from my politics textbook, it doesn’t seem anywhere close to what other people – people in my tute, people in my class, hell, complete randoms on the Internet WHO ARE MY AGE AND CAN SPIT OUT PARAGRAPH AFTER PARAGRAPH OF POLITICS OPINION COMPLETE WITH HEAVY JARGON – know.
I wonder if this makes my opinion somehow less valid, if this makes me “stupid”, and unsuitable for any job other than the inevitable language teaching / interpreting that comes about as a sort of booby prize for having taken International Studies? I don’t even know what to think anymore, whether to be disappointed in myself, or envious of others knowledge, or perhaps assume that no-one actually knows anything and are really just talking out of their ass and thus resent them?
It’s okay to be (sorta) angsty (at least by my standards) on here ’cause no-one reads this anyway unless you’re weird and put me on RSS feed (yes, that’s right, I’m talking to you).
tim is a terrible student 5:18 pm
I NEED TO PEE. Also I am extremely tired and have only written about one-twentieth of my essay despite having skipped almost every class and paying shit-all attention in this one.
Also I am deprived of sleep and pretty much need to pull an all-nighter if I want to hand this assignment in on time. I don’t even know what I’m doing. I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO START.
This is lame. I hope I come home to find a CD package or something because seriously, that’s the only good that can come out of today.
tim and his music and tim is a terrible student and tim spends money he doesn't have 2:37 am
Just to provide closure to the whole Vampire Weekend saga; the whole story is too long and uninteresting for me to be bothered typing it all out to an invisible audience so I’ll just sum it up by saying that their PR team or whoever is booking their gigs have no idea how to do their job and that fan clubs should not be allowed for any musical single-sex group that do not sing, dance, wear co-ordinated costumes and appeal to a core fan base of twelve year old girls, or Asians. That is all.
Also I have an assignment due in three days I haven’t started, or properly researched. Nor do I have any idea on how I will approach said assignment. Like usual, it will probably come to me while I sit on the toilet sometime in the future. This is neither surprising, nor particularly new.
Also in recent times my last.fm has been reading as if I’ve been taking music recommendations from Stuff White People Like. On one hand I am secretly pleased that I have somehow managed to build up “indie cred” or something like that, no matter how tenuous (read; bullshit) such a term might be. On the other hand, I have spent an awful lot of money building up the 1/4 of my CD collection that is made up of trashy pop music (both English and otherwise) and I don’t really want it to go to waste. I feel conflicted.
tim is a terrible student 11:20 pm
Goddamn I am hating Global Circulation of Asian Pop Culture. It is so ridiculously hit-and-miss. One week we can have a very interesting lecture on Thai culture and why exactly they have so many transvestites, the next we have a middle-aged Asian lady talking at us (that’s at us, mind you, not to us) about the camera and writing techniques found in Korean movies. WHAT THOSE HAVE TO DO WITH THE MOVIES’ GLOBAL CIRCULATION IS BEYOND ME.
Also the online conversation are screwy like whoa; someone please post some discussion questions with some substance, I beg you. “What do you think of Peking opera?” is neither relevant nor interesting to answer or read about. You are not going to get extra marks for making up inane questions for a topic discussion YOU ARE NOT EVEN IN CHARGE OF ORGANISING. All you are doing is making it harder for people to have proper discussion since the message board is clogged up with inanity like “Why do you think Korean TV drama is not popular in Australia?” (Hint; BECAUSE IT’S SHITE.)
Bloody hell, at the very least I thought it’d be an easy distinction grade, and it isn’t even that.
tim is a terrible student 3:03 pm
HIST115 can take its bloody self-important assignment and stick it. Seriously.
Screw you for ruining my plans by conveniently having your online drop box not work.
And screw you for failing to tell anyone about it until until the night before.
Mostly, screw you for being a shit subject.
Note to self; pick better classes next semester.
tim is a terrible student 11:50 am
Because my timetable is badly planned, I have a three hour break between a lecture and a tutorial on Friday.
I’m in the library working on yet another Contemporary China assignment.
When you walk in, it’s almost frightening how hard everyone is working. Heads down, pens moving.
It’s almost like a battery farm except with students hard at work instead of very tired chickens.
tim is a terrible student 1:42 pm
Today I’m somewhere I haven’t been to in quite a while. Do you recognise it?
Actually I’m here to do research for a Contemporary China assignment; I was supposed to do it at Macquarie on Friday since their library isn’t crippled like this one, but unfortunately I was distracted by the mad scientist-esque death traps in their library basement.
As you can see, I’ve pulled out an inordinate amount of books from which to draw information from.
And the likely case will probably be that all of them, save maybe two, will be completely useless.
At least it’s only eight hundred words.
tim is a terrible student 8:49 pm
I’ve been doing this since Year 8, and I still can’t shake the juvenile feeling I get when practicing kanji.
It feels an awful lot like doing the handwriting exercises we used to do in primary.
Incidentally, I always feel like a total-pro for being able to do some of the characters half-decently.
Even if you can tell my form is really bad if you look up close.
